1
In the summer of 2013, red bean nest in a small rental housing, to the laptop faint light of the deadlines.
In three hours before the typhoon landed, it rains, the air duct should be raised, the house then blackouts without warning!Then computer "ding, with a computer without electricity, the screen black, red bean angrily closed the computer cover, this just found around the black, heavy rain beating with glass, like countless hands flapping in the glass, struggling to come in. Red told myself to stay calm, but still can't help. She is a little want to cry, he can live very good, why good roamed, stand to the bad situation? Blame the kremlin, but that he must the sh Chou on traveling, he and don't make track for to the end of the world!
Red bean more think and injustice, could not help but to call the kremlin.Spoke by telephone, red bean pretending to casually asked: "where?"
"Where can also, my hometown bai!"
"You are not in Taipei?
Red bean blurted out, not where sh Chou, the kremlin is there?Can't catch what he said next, red bean, she want to say, "I was in Taipei, I thought you were coming?"The results with a sieve.Red bean silly, the kremlin is not in Taipei, that her all the way to a city without GongNing what to do!?, is very calm, quiet, and she still stand the typhoon!Power cut!Darkness!
"Bang" a loud noise, the wind front of twist off the trunk of the direct hit a big window, the glass broken, the wind mixed with rain, Lin her life water, ice, cold, cold to the bottom of my heart.Red bean through the years of the kremlin's stubborn perseverance and persistence, finally died.
2
Red bean and GongNing are junior high school students.
A sentence can be a very good to describe red bean, the female classmate no story.She is neglected, the doctrine of the mean area, teachers don't attention, classmates didn't remember that for many years after the reunion, meet, feel familiar names, but how also can't name ormosia of middle school, this was the case.
Kai hua junior high school is like a school, can enter most rev China add to digest, mention to is most prominent children, although gathered a lot of "rich second generation" school spirit is not.Red bean don't understand why my parents must be entered China, compared with classmates eminent family, he is too general.He doesn't like kai hua secondary school, here let he inferiority.Wish I can change a school common point, she can be very happy, and China is the only can let the red bean like empty of tiantai, reading books, listen to the radio, or do nothing lying down, watching the clouds that short moment let her very free teaching building with many most high tree, the branches on the rooftop, red beans do the sunny-day dolls, hanging, faint, he felt tiantai belongs only to himself.
One day, he as usual to the rooftop, only to find that someone, that sat down in the dumps.
GongNing, language lesson today, he does not know under what to sh Chou, a "told to give up, GongNing like you" note to the last row results sh Chou are held up his hand: "teacher,, GongNing disrupt the classroom order."He was the teacher call to make stand as punishment, there's nothing to it.The real damage is sh Chou class looking for him, to let said: "GongNing, you have the right to like me, but don't bother me."
Red bean back, clearly see the youth in the eyes look forward to split into pieces, he is very sad, was hurt.
GongNing sitting on the other side, red beans do corner, each other is not disturbed.It got dark, ormosia sit back to the classroom, clear the table ready to self-study, only to find the diary in the rooftop.Red has a sense of foreboding, go up a look, and GongNing is diary, while turning over the red beans with interest, red bean of a gun, glared at him.
3
Like the sh Chou GongNing continue to fear death.
Sh Chou is a low-key girl, red bean a good impression on her.He rarely speak, like to wear long sleeves, and his face all the year round in a white transparent color, quietly reading, looking up, out of the window and look different from the desolation of one's peers.This is a story of a girl, in front of her and GongNing long like a little kids clamoring for sugar, she doesn't like GongNing, red bean for GongNing feel sad.But young feelings most stubborn and unreasonable, GongNing still like side shine, every time after she refused, he went to the rooftop will heal, the light of the evening the young sorrow big bright and pure and fresh, red bean think, after many years, if she write GongNing, he would have told him, saying, young I saw sunshine fall on your shoulder to have a rest.
GongNing grow good-looking, one eye can let a person amazing type, has a delicate face and eyes.Hear is the smallest class, with a genius IQ and below the level of emotional intelligence, elegant disciple, a simple family, be protected well, red bean bet GongNing so big frustration is sh Chou didn't like him.
Red bean mixture, red bean hate those born can get all of the people, GongNing is that kind of person.
She thought, finally sh Chou yuan don't like him again, red bean is not a vicious girl, don't know why, red bean is no way to bless them, later discovered, red bean from already of GongNing ulterior motives, she like GongNing like sh Chou, love the boy.
At that time, didn't find red bean, two side for the roof, and rule out red bean to write her novels, GongNing treatment of internal injuries, but obviously, GongNing want to find a person talk.
One day, he come over: "XiaoGongDou," long songs "have you finished?""Long songs" is the red bean wrote half of the novel, whether GongNing really like, or don't like it, this sentence is pleased red bean, he shook his head: "no, not yet."
"The last to let them together!"
"Why?"
"He did so much, so like her, if not together, so pitiful."
"You tube."Red bean this diary, looked back a look, juvenile holding the knees, sitting there alone, really is too poor.
Night lessons, ormosia have no idea to do my homework, he took his diary, wrote "the long song" a happy ending, the next evening, GongNing came up, the young girl said as unintentional said: "I let them together."
"Really!"GongNing bright eyes, a little embarrassed to ask: "can you give me have a look?"
Red bean wanted to think, pass him the diary.GongNing sitting beside her serious finish see, return the diary to red bean: "XiaoGongDou, I like your story, thank you."
This sentence is, he is behind the vast expanse of sunset, covered the sky, young beautiful appearance and gentle eyebrow eye, like the twilight let people never forget.Red bean took the diary, turned down the heart of thunder, she pretended to calm took a few steps, until the staircase, began to run, run to the last layer, his breath looked at the wall, is really kills life beautiful.
4
This is the first time, saw her GongNing afterwards will ask: "red beans, did you write a new novel?"From XiaoGongDou into a red bean, used a semester, are two people have no words don't talk about good friend.
They all like tiantai, sometimes GongNing late, red bean I put diary in a secret that only two people they know base, GongNing finished, will write "I know".No one found that red bean to write novels, in addition to the kremlin, he was her only audience.
At first she wrote novels, is to please oneself, to vent frustrations.Then he wrote the story, all is for the sake of GongNing, because he liked her words, this made him happy.Would not be pacified a tragedy, no matter how process of twists and turns, abuse of love deep, is a happy ending.Because after meet GongNing time become beautiful, she is the best "they" have a happy ending.
Unfortunately, GongNing or failed in sh Chou, he write love letter, will back sh Chou intact;He sent her home, report to track.The beautiful young frustrated: "why sh Chou hate me so much?"
"He didn't hate you, I just don't like you.?"Red bean to feel, sh Chou not proud wayward girl, but want to let the dead heart.The red bean is really care about GongNing, she hesitated, or is the truth: "GongNing give it up, sh Chou won't go with you."
GongNing silence, for a long time didn't raise his head, eyes red: "red beans, this is my first love."The injustice of the eyes to make her heart a pull, red bean in groaning, ask: "do you want to let her remember you?"
GongNing eyes bright, red bean looked out of the sky, said: "it is for her to write a diary?"
For her to write a diary, inside is all about her, you, you planned to.Like her long, write long, to the graduation day, had given her own hands, no girl would refuse to a such a sincere heart.Over the years, she has motherhood, inadvertently turn over the diary, he would think about everything, she once had been so no more love.
"Rather than on the rampage, you send her a not old memories, a good treasure, not more beautiful?"
Red bean watched GongNing GongNing zheng big eyes, eyes bloomed in more and more bright luster, he jumped up, hugged her hard, : "thank you, red beans, it's very kind of you!"Red bean stiff being hugged, actually this hug soon, a hug is open, but enough to remember, she took the this moment accurate portrayal of the novel.GongNing let her go, walk a few steps, come and pull her again: "accompany me to buy a diary, to accompany me, to accompany me, girls know what girls like you!"Red bean as he tugged, if GongNing is the dusk, that she is the of the midnight, shady unrequited love.
5
GongNing diary wrote, but didn't send out.
That was two years later, GongNing diary filled.
Test the end, the teacher in charge call everyone farewell meeting, GongNing prepared to take send diary, what the teacher said, GongNing a word also did not listen, the line of sight to follow sh Chou.
Dissolved, GongNing holding a diary with out, and to the playground, he stopped.He saw sh Chou side stood a man, wearing sunglasses, hand on crutches, is a very nice boy.That it doesn't matter, the point is sh Chou saw him, blossom smile more beautiful than ever.
"I can't see you, their tacit understanding as he is for her eyes, as if to know all his life.
GongNing sitting on a rooftop, have no in hand out diary.Two years, more than seven hundred day and night, all of his mood, finally has not sent out.Red bean doesn't know how to comfort, why so good?A fool, just a diary, you won't disturb her.
But GongNing still reluctant, he hopes his heart the most precious girl can smile like that.Red bean patted him on the shoulder: "calculate, not contact."
She also can only say, she looked at the diary: "what about it?""Fly!"GongNing efforts smiled to smile, smile of very ugly, she sobbed, "let them gone!"
Red bean with GongNing fold a paper airplane in the afternoon, they are still in the sunshine, put two years GongNing sunny mood, page by page tear, folding into a paper airplane, and threw them only from tiantai, watching them gliding, flew over, finally to nowhere, like their bitter youth.
Red bean from GongNing as far as possible, she noticed this kind of teenagers from time to time wipe away tears.But red bean or couldn't help but love dearly GongNing, she hugged him: "it's okay, the elder brothers, in the future will be someone like you, you also love her."
Last she said fast cry, GongNing also held her, his eyes red than the rabbit: "red beans, same to you."
GongNing leave, with red bean stories, he said thanks for red bean has been company, he has never done anything for it, his parents are intellectuals, might meet someone who can publish them.Red bean want to say, she don't care these, she wrote the novel is to give him a look, but she said nothing.She don't know how to speak, to the young said that has the sad memory and me not together, I have been like you for a long time, you just like me, a little bit I am very satisfied.She was afraid, she let GongNing walk, see his emaciated figure from the tiantai, wiping away tears as he goes, he is so sad.Red bean cry not to come out, her voice had suffered, she put the story of a real GongNing like secret base, there is no longer a story, but her all feelings for him for two years.She hides with waterproof paper, very tight, someone may never find it, have what relation?If not he, who found no meaning.
6
Entered a different high school, red bean and GongNing GongNing performance is very good, red bean can only test is quite near to his school, as time goes by, love sh Chou GongNing, red bean can only far looking at GongNing, three years later, they are at opposite ends of a city on a different university.
They also often contact, occasionally meet, but also just good friends.Red bean is unexpected, sophomore year, unexpectedly have edit contact her, GongNing ormosia novel printed, all submissions, so made, is also a day, GongNing call red bean.
"Red beans do you know? Sh Chou family hereditary disease, very serious that!"His tone is very heavy, very anxious, as if the disease is not sh Chou, instead of him.Red bean heart sank, comfort him, like I used to hang a telephone, a draft of the happy to be washed.
GongNing follow sh Chou and so on traveling down the curtain, he is not in the pursuit of her, but the real but her heart.
Sh Chou bad boyfriend eyes, eyesight but 0.1, even if is very good, also have not convenient, sh Chou to visit on a regular basis.GongNing afraid sh Chou what happened one day, and even help people all have no, he is going to stay at her side, want to have an accident, he can appear immediately.This time it happened, red bean don't understand, GongNing said, because of my poor sh Chou, but eyes, she didn't want to do his eyes, to accompany him to see a flourishing all over the world.Really touching, is little, they change a city, GongNing followed run, joint ormosia also chasing.
After graduating from college, red bean work, also can see GongNing follow sh Chou to other cities, or cruel resigned, red bean, let it be, broken broken falls, where you go I will where.Anyway, a novel can also earn some money, figure a food and clothing, she was a full-time do draft.
Red bean is not, of course, in order to sh Chou, it is not put GongNing.
He did not deliberately contact GongNing, just want to stay in the same place, thinking about one day they walk on the road, passing is recognized each other, that is the real romantic and surprise, GongNingCong hadn't thought of, why are they always in different cities to see snorts, he put the phenomenon as a miracle, also didn't happen in red beans, they are still a person, love is so hard.
Short years, they go through a lot of cities, house rented for a wide variety of enduring the bird dialects, and practice the neutral and disturbing, they encounter, also have to leave no meet, ormosia regardless, she was afraid of dispute will lose courage, she only non-stop chasing GongNing in this way, not to think about it, especially in the future.If their relationship is a pilgrimage, they are all three steps all the way that a dervish.
Red bean does not know how long can endure, until the typhoon day, stormy her over a glass of completely collapsed.Why she do this to myself, her despair, even the great palace dinin could fail, she XiaoGongDou a layman: why do you want to stick to?
Just let it be, over, XiaoGongDou be dead!
7
Red bean spent the night in the wind and rain.
The next day, small wind, the rain still next, red bean slippers and a glass, like a ghost, finishing the room, she put on clothes to hospital, her face, the temperature is up, before fainted, give the card to nurse, but said: "don't let me die, I want to live in the best room."
Red bean had a serious illness.She suddenly enlighted, originally in addition to like a person, even if a little cold, also want life, if even oneself all don't cherish, who will come to love you?Red bean disease good, forget GongNing so a person, she changed mobile phone number, to send all notification message, besides GongNing, she shall be without love, out of danger.
Before in number, red bean called GongNing last call, GongNing sound is small, a bit odd, red bean was asked what he's doing, GongNing said wryly in blind date, red bean blurted out: "sh Chou?"
GongNing silence for a long time, said: "I also have my life, can't be a lifetime of caring her."
Red bean "oh", hung up the phone and put the card down, step on a few feet, throw far away again, "to your GongNing, get out of my life."
Red bean to forget GongNing, she wrote a novel, tells a girl had a dream, fell in love with a boy in my dream.
Isn't it a beautiful young man in the world, before he became smelly copper, only he shining like gold, young says, he is my dream to meet, but in the real life, also exist, call girls looking for him.
Girls like him, voluntary in the ends of the earth to find, but she said to the boy, everyone said no this man, this girl is a is going to marry the bride, family said he was sick, take her to see a doctor.Girls how to admit that you sick?Her dream and also meet the young man, girls crazy torture, young also don't know where he collapsed and then one day some girl knocked at the door, is a boy, but the girl have already don't know him, she looked at the white boy circulation, again and again, yes, he does not exist, yes, I am sick, I don't give up treatment."
Editor to see the last sentence, vomited a screen full of blood, said: "you make joke again?"
Red bean to GongNing is a joke, from beginning to end, are all her fantasy, the thought of the past few days, she would also like a crazy bitch,, she has to travel to the past, put the XiaoGongDou strangled, wake up, hurriedly appointed, is not like XiaoGongDou GongNing, simply, XiaoGongDou finally learn to forget, so many years, how true love this GongNing XiaoGongDou, she has a little not willing to give up his show, wearing veils would not, he is her the secret of the hidden deep in the heart, she could not bear to publicity, the text being relish, she is good not others.Now her insight, she wants to write a story GongNing, to completely forget him.
8
Red bean in Taipei finished writing the story "the last one city"
The last one city, I was homeless here, you'll never follow your step.
She wants to write a woman crazy, pursue to the end of a person.But when writing, she recalled, back into time of tiantai, red bean calm, no one is asking for this relationship, GongNing is innocent, he knew nothing.
She remembered, in the last side of tiantai, GongNing said: "red beans, if you write stories for me later, just write -"
Red bean thought he would say, let them together, but he didn't, GongNing eyes were sad, but he said: "write finally she is very happy, your whole life happiness, and favorite people together."He bless her, even if sh Chou from did not respond to his true feelings, GongNing or wish them.Stories written in the end, red bean grief, he cried while writing:
My dear boy, you never know I have you ever been so deep love, been treated so no reservations, don't blame you, my pride and inferiority is too strong, let me always have the courage to stand in front of you, but I don't regret it, don't regret our company and I follow your time.
Because of you, my life of the young, I walked so much of the city, to see so many different scenery, you can let the cowardly I a person brave go, you don't know how great you are, you let me become even a person to write with.No, no, no, these are not important, it is important that my young, you love is to return to where?Forgive me, I give up, I still can't be that you like very much very much.
In the past, I have many times thought, I wrote a love story for you in your memory into what finally.Hidden in the words of each sentence I like you, are you to speak to the listening, I wonder if you see it.
I has a crush on a boy, thank you, appear in my life.
Thank you, the kremlin.
9
This time, the red bean written agency name, even if it is just a pen name.
Finish the day passes is expired, at the airport, she seemed to hear someone calling her, looked back a look, no one, after a security check.
She went back to their hometown, find a stable job, quiet life.
That is forgotten by her to novel unexpectedly let her put a red, editor to push xinwen, red bean, said: "I can not write a better story."Because she can only be so vigorous like this life a person.
Forget GongNing red bean, and soon made a boyfriend, talk about marriage.
New Year is a junior high school classmate party, also go to the red bean, met the increasingly clear handsome GongNing, even the time that kill pig knife, let GongNing, red bean nod and smile to him, she somehow became the class's and grade's red, we all call her xiao writer, take turns to toast, too much passion if frightened her pet.It happened that he had a serious alcohol allergy.GongNing stood up and helped her to block all the wine.Students jokingly, haven't found that your relationship so good, GongNing calm of say: "you don't know, I and red bean, junior high school is the best friend."The words almost make red bean cry out, she would like the people like to go to the end of time.
GongNing vomitted, ormosia stood, was at a loss.
GongNing said he is ok, call a taxi for her, say has always been red bean GongNing walk, now in his red bean.
Red bean sitting in the car, looked back to see under the streetlights GongNing lonely slim figure.Sh Chou didn't come, I heard that, in the summer of 2013 she went to Taipei to marry, and then, GongNing completely abandoned.Drove to halfway, red bean let the driver turned around and qi hua high school, she a person came to tiantai, she find that used to belong to their diary, touched the along while didn't touch, to touch a letter, take out red beans, they are familiar with, is GongNing.
In the summer of 2013, rev. School students came to me and asked me if I GongNing, she said the classmate found a diary on the rooftop, wrote to me, write for three years, have seen the students cried, spontaneous looking for me, they asked me if I GongNing.
At that moment, I understand why red bean in Taipei, why I didn't always encountered in different cities, how big the coincidence of can always met in different cities, so this is not a miracle, I set out immediately to Taipei, saw red beans off the plane, I call her.
Red bean didn't look back, I think she did not hear, that was the last time I saw your red ter, finally have your message, you have a boyfriend, I had hate, why hate others easily together.
Later, I think that I tell you my telephone in dating, actually I was dating, is in response to the parents.I care about you is, I just want to tell you, I am willing to follow you to the end of the world, is destined to the door, I missed.
That day, I went to the rooftop, wrote the letter, but I do not know, who will send, young of the kremlin, red bean or is another girlfriend, for example, together, I also like you, but it is not right, also good red bean gave me a never grow old memories, red bean: you're right, many years later to see the book's own diary, time is not terrible.
See the red bean, tears stream down has been, in his empty tiantai wail aloud to weep aloud.
She saw, saw GongNing said like, say together.
But everything is too late, just like that year, they together in tiantai fly paper airplanes, paper planes can't fly back, red bean and GongNing also don't go back, even in the good times in the past, he didn't finally reduced the end of the world.The END
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